Your dream starts as soon as you wake up

My name is Priscilla and I'm hot stuff! I was born in Oak Park, Illinois, and I'm now stuck in the hell hole that is goody, goody Mormon Utah. I know lucky me, but if I keep myself around my friends I think I'll survive.

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Why is Christmas so fake?

I was listening in church today (I know shocker). And my friend Brandon was giving his talk and in it he said,"In the Christian community you can usually feel love, but especially around Christmas time, you can feel the love so much more." And my first thought was,"Why?"
Why is it that the entire Christian community becomes so full of love for this one month? Do they purposely keep all of that love bottled up until Christmas, until the bottle just breaks and all the love pours out? Or do they feel like if they don't keep all that love bottled up that they will run out of their yearly alloance of love? And if that's not it and they just naturally feel more loving around Christmas time, then why just around Christmas? Why not the other 11 months of the year? And if you say that is is because Christmas is suppose to be us, meaning our religion, celebrating the miraculous birht of Christ, then why doesn't that same love exsist during Easter time? Isn't Easter the day that we celebrate Christ dying to give us the oppurtunity to be forgiven of all our sins, as well as the oppurtunity to live again with our Heavenly family? I personally think it's sad that our society has choosen to completely ignore this aspect of these holidays.
Another thing that I wish our society would stop would be the infantile use of make-believe characters such as Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny. And instead of giving out presents from a false man called Santa, celebrate Chrsitmas focusing on Christ, and teaching our youth that we give out presents to represent that what Christ did for us was a gift and that the gifts are symbolic of his love and his sacrifice. Honestly...I think Santa is a ridiculous waste of time for everyone.
Preseela out...

Saturday, December 25, 2004


This is a list of questions that have been spinning around that spherical mass of blood flesh and bone that I call a head; thanks to a conversation I have had tonight.
- Why do I like him when I know in the end it's going to make me hate him?
- Why can't I just want to be friends?
- Why can't I just tell him the truth?
- Why is it so hard for me to accept that he doesn't feel the same way?
- Why does everyone have to tell me that we either are or would make "such a cute couple"?
- Why do I have to agree with them?
- Why do I trust him so much?
- Why am I a "good friend", when I want to be more?
- Why do I force this pain on myself, why can't I just stop?
- Why didn't I listen when you hurt all of my friends?
- Why Why does he have to make me feel this way, so loved, so special?
- Why is he always in the back of my mind?
- Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but why did I have to fall for you?
- WHY?